324,028 Words

Three hundred twenty-four thousand, twenty-eight words ago there was nothing in this space. And then I wrote.

This morning I deleted just about all of those words. One click of the button and they were gone. Poof. I swear. Check the archives and you will find nothing.

What will find its way to this space? That’s my personal 324,028 million dollar question. I’m not rushing to find the answer.

For the moment I am embracing the clean slate. The reset. The promise of another circle around the sun (and how nice of it to start on a Sunday–you Type As know what I’m talking about.) 

I will write. It’s the when, where, how, and why that I’m choosing to redefine.

As a gift to myself I choose to leave this space open. We all need an open door somewhere, even if we opened it all on our own.

Happy New Year! 

(I’m not entirely crazy. I exported a huge file to my hard-drive should I ever want to revisit what I wrote here these last six years.)

UPDATE 1/5/2017: I am sloooooowly restoring a handful of posts that seem to have had an impact on readers.

 

 

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Dear god, I hope someone kept the receipt!

Many weeks ago, I stopped blogging here. I stopped blogging about the election. I stopped blogging altogether. I was spent. And, really, how many more ways could I continue to say what a schmuck Donny the Trump is. I, like so many of you, knew the election seemed close, but never really thought he’d win.

Joke’s on us. He’s President-elect. And he’s fucking smug about it, isn’t he? Wait until he finds out the job doesn’t come with a sash and tiara!

I don’t think it’s arrogance as much as it is delusion. Trump lives in a gilded bubble of his own making. He doesn’t know people are using him. He doesn’t know he is a joke. He literally cannot fathom that he’s not actually god’s gift to the earth.

Happy fucking holidays! Dear god, I hope someone kept the receipt!

The reality–the terrible reality–is he did win, which means, I suppose, there are a few people who do like him. The white nationalists, for example, seem very excited about what a President Trump could offer. And Trump shareholders (aka the Family von Trump) look to make a killing while Daddy is off building walls and internment camps (do you think that’s what he meant when he called for new infrastructure?)

And the rest of us, well, we’re supposed to just sit here and take our medicine—expensive, not covered by insurance medicine—for having the audacity to call him out for each and every lie he tells, each and every threat he makes, and each and every trust he breaks. Oh wait, the concepts of trust and ethical behavior don’t apply to him. He said so himself when speaking to the New York Times:

“The law’s totally on my side, meaning, the president can’t have a conflict of interest.”
— Donald Trump, interview with the New York Times, Nov. 22, 2016

Just call him President Loophole. If there is a hole he’ll find it He’ll use and abuse it. He’ll claim the hole was asking for it. When you’re famous you can do that.

Someone needs to smack that man across the face and explain two things to him. The first is a question of basic mathematics. Trumpy boy, you do not have a mandate. 75% of this country either didn’t vote for you or didn’t vote. That means 25% of these “United” States checked a box with your name on it. Some were voting for you (Hi, David Duke!), some voted blindly for the GOP candidate, and others voted for Not Her. That’s not a mandate, that’s apathy and frustration at work. Yay, America!

Let me lay it out more clearly with some notes from a one of my more math inclined friends:

  1. The majority of all voters voted against Donald Trump.
  2. Hillary Clinton was the first choice of the largest number of voters (she was the plurality winner of the popular vote).
  3. Hillary Clinton’s margin over Donald Trump was more than 2 million votes.
  4. Donald Trump has become President-elect solely by narrow wins in a few states that gave him a smallish majority of the electoral votes putting Trump in 44th place among the last 54 presidential elections in count of electoral votes gained.
  5. The game was, as Trump was telling us all along, rigged (ok, this is my addition to the list).

(For more stats, my friend recommends Nate Silver’s post: War Is Peace. Freedom Is Slavery. Trump Won In A Landslide — https://fivethirtyeight.com/features/war-is-peace-freedom-is-slavery-trump-won-in-a-landslide/)

Second, the Presidency is a job. It’s not a title or a royal decree. You work—WORK–for the people. Not some of the people. Not just the white people. Not just the rich people. Not just the Christian people. All the people. You work for me. If you want our respect you’re going to have to earn it. It does not just come with the job. You are going to have to work for it. You’re going to have to step outside your bubble and meet people who genuinely do not like you and you’re going to have to meet them, not in the middle, but on their turf. You will never gain an understanding of what this country needs if you only ever see it from your tower. We will never believe you have our interests at heart if you only ever wave from the parapet.

In a few short weeks, Donald J. Trump will become the leader of the free world, a new world in which ‘free’ will come to have a shitload of caveats attached to it. Why anyone thinks he’ll be transformed into something palatable by the mere taking of an oath is beyond me. Even now he is practicing the art of leading by distraction. He tweets out inflammatory and irresponsible words with one hand and hires the very people he railed against with the other. He talks about bringing the country together while sitting in his tower on his gold throne plotting how he might deny citizens their rights.

The only way this country survives and moves forward is to troll the hell out of Trump and the Trump administration for each and every step they make towards “taking the country back”. Back from whom, I’ve never quite understood. Judging by the proposed legislation they mean back in time. Back to when people knew their place, boy.

I’m not going back. The same constitution that protects them, protects me. And I will stand up and fight for my rights. I will stand up and fight for your rights. I will stand. Together, we will rise.

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And then there is hate

I start each blog here on Mondays with the intention of being interesting or funny or at least sarcastic (if only to amuse myself) but it’s been difficult lately. I don’t have the words to express my sadness and anger and frustration the state of the world currently requires.

Rape isn’t funny.

Murder isn’t funny.

Bigotry isn’t funny.

Politics? Well, that ceased to be funny a while ago. While one side is decidedly headed by a profoundly hilarious clown, I can’t laugh when I see how many people think he is a valid example of a world leader, especially when he pulls out his favorite Lincoln-Douglas debate retort: I know you are but what I am, you loser. (Now that I think about it, maybe PeeWee Herman deserves a write-in campaign this year.)

And then there is hate.

And then there is violence.

And then there are tears and wailing at walls and for walls.

And then there is pointing fingers and demanding answers and assigning blame.

And then there is a call for retribution, blind though it may be.

And then there is a reminder that we do not yet have all the answers.

And then we fold in when we remember black and white are just for words on a page.

And then we sift through the grey particles of our grey matter as we search for truth and meaning.

And then we bury the dead and we bury our feelings.

And then we wait.

We wait for something to be done. Surely something will be done THIS time, right?

I am tired of counting the dead. I am tired of having to prove the worth of a woman. I am tired of explaining the self-evident concept of “all are created equal”.

I join a chorus of women – of people – who call (yet, one more time) for something better.

Your right to hate ends at our right to live in peace.

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